“Walls, you can build them all around, or you can tear them down. I suppose it depends on what walls to build or tear down, if that makes sense. Something that I have been thinking about today.”
I want to apologize for not having posted in awhile.
A lot of things happened, I slipped into depression again, but this time it was just on and off. Slipping in and out.
I’ve been stressed, ashamed, weak, tired, lately and so much more. Though I’ve been through those times of stress, shame, weakness, tiredness, and so much more – I’ve also been through times of thankfulness, happiness, peace, forgiveness, and other things too; and for that I’m truly thankful and happy about.
I want to thank all those who have liked my writings and who have followed my blog. It truly means a lot. I wish I knew how to explain, but the only way that I can explain that is simple is that I’m truly thankful and that it truly does mean a lot to a girl who didn’t think her writing was good at all.
If you don’t hear from me or if I don’t post anything again for awhile, I apologize. Later on, hopefully I’ll be able to explain, but what I can only say is that I’ve finally made a decision, and though I don’t know my future because my future to me is unknown, my God is known.
God is Known.
I’ve heard God and Jesus tell me many times that I am forgiven, that I am loved, that I am free, that I am His, and so much more. I’ve heard from Him and Jesus to not worry, and though my future seems to be unsure and I don’t know what will happen and how He will take care of it all, He will take care of all it.
You can worry. Or you can trust God. You can’t do both. it’s either I worry or I trust Him. I can’t do both.
I trust Him.
“To love at all, is to be vulnerable.” – C.S. Lewis
I don’t know why and how, but I want people to see my vulnerability. I’ve been trying to show people that I am vulnerable.
I want people to see the vulnerable side of me. I want people to see the worst and best in me, as scary as it is.
But as scary as it can be and as it is, I want to bare it all. I want to be honest.
I want to show people that I am strong in my weakness. I can be strong in my strong points, but I am strong in my weaknesses.
I just want to show my soul.
I just want to be vulnerable.
I just want them to see . . . me.
Do you see me? I am vulnerable.